Weigh in day!

Today I decided it was time to weigh in. It's been a little less than a week since i got on the scale and yayy for me, I'm down another 3 lbs. I've passed the 20 lb mark now, and I'm on to my next 20!! I watched that new show last night where you see one persons journey through losing weight for a year. This girl started out at 369 lbs or something to that effect and she lost like 160 lbs....in a year! I mean, she was spending like 3 or 4 hrs a day at the gym...but I feel like if she can lose that much in a year, I can certainly lose 100! By my birthday (which is July 9th) I plan to be down another at least 20 lbs and be at a new milestone for myself! That's the next goal in my set of goals. No need to think big picture, just 20 lbs at a time. And if I'm down another 20 lbs I'll be smaller than I've been in prob 6 or 7 years. That'd be absolutely amazing, and would just push me to keep going. I bought myself a pair of running sneakers today. The shoes I were wearing wern't cutting it, especially since I've been stepping it up at the gym. I don't have much of a budget for spending, but this is sooo worth it. Having what I need to make the most of my workouts is key. I'm looking forward to trying them out tomorrow after work! Might even try a class at the gym. we shall see! haha
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I'm blushing! :D

Not only has everyone I work with told me I look like i'm losing weight, but I actually got the best compliment tonight. It's from a girl who, without naming names said that I have inspired her. She told me that she is joining a gym because of me and that I should keep writing because it keeps her motivated. I have to say, that was the sweeeetest compliment I could get! I have more energy than I've had in such a long time, and I'm almost down to a weight I havn't been in a good 4 years or more! Working out is still a small struggle, only because it's boring...but I love the results so I try to have fun with it. Good music makes alllll the difference. Tomorrow is weigh in day and I am hoping for positive results. I always get a little nervous even if I know i've been good cause I just don't want it to stop haha. Although, if I didn't lose much, then I just step it up this coming week! I love that my sister has joined the gym and is going with me. She's doing great losing weight as well and it makes me truly happy. It's wonderful to be able to text her and go...meet me tomorrow at noon? and then have each other to keep motivated. Fingers crossed for weigh in tomorrow...I'll let you all know how it goes! haha.
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the gym and I

So I have to say...the gym has become my new home away from home. Besides days that work is too crazy to get there, i'm there every day. In a week I was there 6 times, and I'm doing great! I'm learning to jog on the treadmill and work up a killer sweat. I'm burning about 1000 calories an hour and I have more energy than I've ever had. I swear, I always thought it was a myth that going to the gym would give you energy. But I'll work a full day, work out for an hour or two and then have the energy to do what I need to do at night. I'm so proud of my family too cause my sister has been going to the gym w/ me almost every day, and my mom has started taking the dog for a walk every day twice a day for 20 minutes. I can see a change for the positive in all of us and I'm so proud. I am down about 20 lbs and it's starting to show. Even everyone at work is saying my face looks thinner and so does my body. Makes me want to keep at it! Plus...it's such a phenominal stress reliever. I have been BEYOND stressed. This graduating thing is gonna kill me. I am just waiting now to hear what my final grade is and see if I've graduated or not. The old days the stress would make me eat...now, the stress is making me work out harder. I am still working on eating habbits, and getting the right ballance of calories and not just eating one big meal a day instead of a bunch of small meals. It's gonna take a long time till I get it totally right, but that's ok. I'm just gonna keep at it!!

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shame on me!! :(

It's been sooo long since i've written anything and I feel terrible about it. I kept meaning to, and I'd say ohhh tomorrow, and then the next day, and soon enough, it's been almost a month! Well, I can't say i've lost all that much, which makes me pretty angry, but I am back on track this past week and I'm doing well. Going to the gym every other day, and working out hard when I'm there. I'm down 2 lbs in 2 days...since my last gym trip so, can't get toooo down on myself. It's way easier to get down on myself and say forget it than to get back into it and get my ass to the gym. So, I'm just getting to the gym and not thinking about the past couple of bad weeks. Not that they were "bad" but I wasn't counting calories as I should. I didn't gain anything back, but I wasn't losing either. I'm giving myself a month to lose another 15 lbs. I wanna be down at least a pant size by the time the beginning of june and the warm weather rolls around. Today I accomplished something I have been afraid to do. I always see on the biggest loser that they run in intervals on the treadmill. Push themselves for a minute or two and then jump off, then do it again etc. I have always been afraid to run on the treadmill. I'm not sure why. I guess it's the idea of people watching my big butt run, and being afraid i'd fall off, or not be able to keep up. But today I pushed my boundaries and after my half hour on the elliptical, I decided it was time to try some running intervals. And I did it! I got my pace up to where I usually do, which is a fast powerwalk and then in 60 second intervals ran, and then went back to a power walk. It was a big deal for me and I plan on trying it again tomorrow. I decided I don't care how I look up on that treadmill if it's gonna make me lose weight. The people that work at the gym are getting to know me, and are so friendly. It's nice to go and people are welcoming and encouraging. The last thing I want to do after a day of work like today, or before I go to work, like tomorrow, is go to the gym....but I'm doing it. I'm gonna force myself until I love it. Or I'll just forever force myself haha. We shall see! Either way, plan on hearing a lot more from me since I refuse to let this blog die.
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