Saturday, March 5, 2011

Day 4...I'm proud of myself

I know it's only 4 days...but I took a bad day and made it good, and for that I'm proud of myself. I went to the podiatrist today for my foot and I have a very inflamed heel and blah blah...long story short I ended up needing a cortisone shot in my heel and he said to ice it and elevate it etc. So while I'm not quite going for a run ready...I'm working on getting all healed up so I can get back to working out harder. I was so good all day counting my calories and eating right. Then, I was tempted. Now I have to be honest and say I tempted myself. My mom had some oral surgery and I forgot she was staying away from carbs and thought I'd be sweet and buy her some ice cream. So, I get home and she goes...why would you do that, I can't eat it? And now it's there. In my house. calling to me. She told me to throw it away...but how does a fat girl throw away ice cream!? So my mom went to bed tonight, and I was hungry, so I said oohhh there's Ice cream!!! I sat down on the couch, opened up my chocolate and peanut butter ice cream and started eating. And with every bite I swear I felt more and more guilty. I was eating it going this doesn't even taste good because I'm hating myself over it. So what'd I do? I threw it away. I got off the couch, and threw it away. For the first time in a very long time I put myself first. I thought about how I'd feel after I finished eating it, rationalized it, and fixed a mistake I was in the middle of making. I'm proud of myself tonight and even if I couldn't work out like I wanted was a good day :-)
<3 Irena

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